Things I don't know...

I don't know if "luckily" is a typical word for a 3 year old - but she used it...

And correctly too, I might add.

I don't know if I'm ready to turn THIRTY-FREAKING-TWO tomorrow - but it's gonna happen...

I don't know if MPI will cut my husband's job next year - but they didn't today...

I don't know what the heck was so wrong with Annie that she had to scream almost all night long - but she did...

I don't know exactly how my story is going to go at Kid's Club tonight - but I'm still gonna tell it...

I don't know what I'm going to do for games tonight at Kid's Club - but I'm in charge...

I don't know what I'm getting everyone for Christmas - but I better figure it out soon...

I don't know if I will have to work tomorrow! Inclement weather is a comin'...

I don't know WHY Grace isn't potty trained by now...but she isn't

I don't know when I've not known so much, and still been okay with it all. For a control freak, it's hard to see life situations like kids and jobs go beyond what you can control. I would think that is the biggest lesson I have learned in my 32 years - is that you gotta flop with the mop and trust God for His control. Sure - there are little things that I could control - i.e. I could definitely be better prepared for Kid's Club tonight (shame on me) - I could definitely be better at Christmas planning on shopping (I am learning!)

But the big stuff - like Clint's job (MPI just cut about 350 jobs today) and my job and my kids are all so out of my control that if I don't learn to be flexible and be okay with "not knowing" - I'll break and will go crazy with worry. This morning I got an email and a phone call from my dad wanting to know if Clint still had a job and what was going on with MPI - I had NO CLUE - apparently, they had to do cuts because of the economy and it sounds like it was sort of a shock and they were calling people at home even to tell them not to come into work. Clint didn't have a clue either, till he got to work. 3 people in his department were cut, he was not one of them. We are so thankful right now. But - it sorta puts the fear into ya. Who knows what will happen if the economy keeps spiraling?

The only security we have is in Jesus and His promise to take care of us. Which, right about now, is the one thing that I feel right now that I DO know for certain.

Writing this post, I have an old hymn in mind that I learned growing up that is applicable and is extremely comforting to me right now:

I don't know about tomorrow;
I just live from day to day.
I don't borrow from its sunshine
For its skies may turn to grey.

I don't worry o'er the future,
For I know what Jesus said.
And today I'll walk beside Him,
For He knows what is ahead.

Many things about tomorrow, I don't seem to understand. But I know who holds tomorrow and I know who holds my hand.

Every step is getting brighter
As the golden stairs I climb;
Every burden's getting lighter,
Every cloud is silver-lined.

There the sun is always shining,
There no tear will dim the eye;
At the ending of the rainbow
Where the mountains touch the sky.

Many things about tomorrow, I don't seem to understand. But I know who holds tomorrow and I know who holds my hand.

I don't know about tomorrow;
It may bring me poverty.
But the one who feeds the sparrow,
Is the one who stands by me.

And the path that is my portion
May be through the flame or flood;
But His presence goes before me
And I'm covered with His blood.